One of the girls in our home group brought us all a copy of this poem. It's one of my new favorite prayers!

Prayer of Sir Francis Drake

Disturb us, Lord, when We are too well pleased with ourselves,
When our dreams have come true
Because we have dreamed too little,
When we arrived safely
Because we sailed too close to the shore.

Disturb us, Lord, when
With the abundance of things we possess
We have lost our thirst
For the waters of life;
Having fallen in love with life,
We have ceased to dream of eternity
And in our efforts to build a new earth,
We have allowed our vision
Of the new Heaven to dim.

Disturb us, Lord, to dare more boldly,
To venture on wider seas
Where storms will show your mastery;
Where losing sight of land,
We shall find the stars.
We ask You to push back
The horizons of our hopes;
And to push into the future
In strength, courage, hope, and love.

It is so easy to be complacent just being stagnant in our relationship with the Lord when we think we are doing fine on our own. One of my favorite verses of a Justin Barnard song is "When in the valley, I know I tend to cling to your hand, because I'm afraid when I can't see. But on the mountaintop I like to stand alone. That's when you break and rescue me." God's ideas always seem like an oxymoron to me. When you're weak, you're strong. When you're poor, you're rich. When you're free from the law, you're a slave to righteousness. Dead to sin, alive in Christ. I guess it's not surprising that this is no exception. The truth is that the times we think we are sitting pretty are usually the times when we are sinking deepest. Lord, don't let me get to a place where I am comfortable and everything seems so good that I forget how desperate I am for you. One of my favorite lines in that poem is "Disturb me, Lord, when I have arrived safely because I sailed too close to the shore." It reminds me of the song that this blog is based on, called "What do I know of holy?" One of the lines is "Where have I even stood but the shore along your ocean?" I don't want to be sitting on the shore dipping my pinky toe into the waters of life, when I could be submerged in them and pressing hard into the heart of the Lord. I don't want to be "safe," because of a lack of faith. I don't want to be so full of this world that I stop hungering for the Father's presence, or so caught up in building my own little world that I forget what it means to advance the kindgom. Father, disturb us. Who says the valley is a place of hopelessness? God doesn't...

"Therefore I am now going to allure her;
I will lead her into the desert
and speak tenderly to her.

There I will give her back her vineyards,
and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope.
There she will sing as in the days of her youth,
as in the day she came up out of Egypt.

"In that day," declares the LORD,
"you will call me 'my husband';
you will no longer call me 'my master. '

Hosea 2: 14-16

You Are Still Holy-Kim Hill

Holy, You are still holy
Even when the darness surrounds my life
Sovereign, You are still sovereign
Even when confusion has blinded my eyes

Lord, I don't deserve Your kind affection
When my unbelief has kept me from Your touch
I want my life to be a pure reflection
Of Your love

And so I come into Your chamber
And I dance at Your feet, Lord
You are my Saviour
And I'm at Your mercy
All that has been in my life
Up 'til now
It belongs to You
You are still holy

Holy, You are still holy
Even though I don't understand Your ways
Sovereign, You will be sovereign
Even when my circumstances don't change

Lord, I don't deserve your tender patience
When my unbelief has kept me from Your truth
I want my life to be a sweet devotion
To You

And so I come into Your chamber
And I dance at Your feet, Lord
You are my Saviour
And I'm at Your mercy
All that has been in my life
Up 'til now
It belongs to You
I belong to You

And so I come into Your chamber
And I dance at Your feet
You are my Saviour
And I'm at Your mercy
All that has been in my life
Up 'til now
It belongs to You
I belong to You
You are still holy
You are still sovereign
You are still holy, Lord
You are still righteous
You are all-knowing
You are still holy

Jeremiah 5:22 Moment

This morning while I was writing in my quiet time journal, I felt like the Lord was calling me to pray and just invite him to come spend with me. So I just stopped and asked that His presence would fill my room. I don't know how many times I've prayed that prayer, but for whatever reason this time when I said it I finally felt the weight of what I was asking! I think usually when I pray that what I really am thinking, without even realizing it is, "God make me feel good during this time, so I'll know that you're here," which is kind of a prideful thought really. But this time instead of getting a rush of peace, I was overwhelmed with fear. Had I really just invited the God of all creation to sit in my room (my laundry piled in the corner, unmade bed, last week's cereal bowl sitting on the floor, would drive my mom crazy, dirty room)? And I did it so nonchalantly! Did I really have the authority to even suggest that the Lord who holds every piece of this world together would actually desire to sit and spend time with me? I think the whole idea of inviting God's presence to dwell among us has become too routine for me. It's a prayer I pray almost every day, whether it be in church, when I'm having lunch with a friend, or during my quiet time. It's a prayer that comes from good inentions, but like every habit, eventually the concious meaning is replaced by ritual. May the weight of those words never seem simple to me again! And the best part is that in the midst or my fear and feelings of unworthiness, the Lord whispered, "Of course I'll rest with you. In fact, I long for that opportunity more than you ever have or ever will!" The mystery of a perfect, holy God who desires communion with flawed and filthy sinners will never fall short of being the most amazing reality any of us will ever know! Find joy in the knowledge that there is no one the Lord desires to spend time with than you, and there is no other time he would rather start than right now. Approach his throne with freedom and confidence (ephesians 3:12), but in humbleness recognize whose presence you are sitting under (Job 38-41).

Oh, and we just finished our first life group meeting. It was really great. Not exactly what we planned it to look like, but when the Lord is leading it rarely does. Keep praying that the Lord would place more people on our hearts to be a part of it!